21.1.13

The Love We Regret

I loved you once, when we were kids and dreaming about the future.
I loved you once, when we were naive and looking for adventure.
I loved you once, when we were little and still have lisp.
I loved you once, before everything burned and we're left with smoke wisp.

I loved them all once.

I loved the boy who made me laugh and laugh and laugh all the long damn day.
I loved the boy who accompanied me all through the stupid nights with witty banters and intelligent conversations.
I loved the boy who taught me how to walk the unaccountable kilometers of the city we used to live.
I loved the boy who convinced me to threw all cautions to the wind and follow him home.
I loved the boy who taught me how to be tough, how to be awesome.

I loved them all. Once, and not so long ago.

When did I stop?

I don't know.

Maybe after that time he hung me up to dry on that special night when I felt like the stupidest person on earth.
Maybe after ....

Well, hmm...

Come to think of it, every love ended after they left me feel like the stupidest person on earth.

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